Somestime it's not easy to get things tht u've always planned to have~face it!!

If I were to have my own wishlist which surely be granted, it will be as thick as yellow pages or even thicker...I believe it is a normal feeling that every human created in this world have or perhaps I might say that it's part of human characters where we always have 'I wish I could have' word in ourselves.Ok now I sound like i'm giving a lecture here..ha3~WELL a good story starts with a good introduction right...I'm sure the tittle of my entry has given you a clear picture of what i'm trying to say..or still u want me to explain in detail..hmmm...ok i'll give you an analogy...You're dying to get Faber Castle True Gel pen and ask your father to buy you one but sadly when he came back he just bought you Ah Heng pen..so tragic isn't it?well that is actually what i'm trying to say...u expected something happen in ur life which is according to what u've planned and so it turn out to be something else u never imagine or expected which turn u down (=,=")...

I guess everyone is clear with that...Lately I bumped into something which I really couldn't tell here..it's a 'sshhhh' so i'm just gonna describe it as "A"...It was sort of feeling I really want "A" to be mine...I pray to God wishing that I could own "A" one fine day..but as I really couldn't bear waiting, everyday that past seems too long and I push myself hard to keep praying..I've no other way to get it besides pray..it is not simply just giving a call and get it serves within 30 minutes like ordering pizza or cracking your piggy bank just to buy an ice-cream...This "A" is so much different from what I ever wanted..I know "A" but I never met "A" yet I want "A"...whuuuiiissshhhh what an explanation~Within that, so many things started to cross my mind..What if I couldn't get "A"? What if "A" is fated not to be mine? What if "A" is just a distraction of my life??............

Is "A" so meaningful in my life?? the answer is "I'm not sure" but why I keep forcing myself to it...well since i'm on semester break I don't mind loading myself with such questions..uhuks...ok back to the "A" issues...So as the questions and eagerness keep playing around me I try to tell myself not to get into it too much then, I try to make myself busy...Tell u, there was one day when I surf the internet looking on articles which I can read and spend my time on..As I dabbled the mouse on some issues on the screen coincidentally, I clicked on one article which  seems to give answers to my questions..well I just like the ending part of the articles where it says 'Only He knows what's the best for you...Have faith in Him..pray and ask for his help..take heed'..sort of like that...well yeeahhh this is it...take a heed..keep praying He loves to listen to your pray..He'll grant u when He knows that you are ready to have it..(motivating myself)....so I tell myself..It doesn't matter if I just got "B" which is mostly like "A" coz Allah knows that i'm not eligible to get "A" and perhaps "B" is actually better than "A" right...so what I mean here is do not simply give up of what has been fated to you...work hard to get what you want but don't ever grumble if at the end it still not yours...be grateful with it......face it....accept it.....appreciate it.........