Sunday, October 31, 2010


Only if could tell to the whole world how i miss my mak and abah damn sooo much...lately i've gone through such a hard time in my life and i don't realize that i've been very sensitive to every events that I encountered..even just a minor thing would burst my tears out..I need them by my side though I knew it would be IMPOSSIBLE (Ya Allah please accept their good deeds and place them with good companion who devotes You)..

I know that everything that happens to me is a test from HIM.. and I'm selected coz He know how far i can go with it..yet at the same time i could feel that i'm not..i failed to perform my very best...easily despair of my own principals...

Actually i'm going to face out a new life of my that is soo alien to me..I'm all alone and i'm really lost at the moment..I know that I think too much to prepare myself before i'm making the step..Im that type of person (foresee things which I would never know in the future frm my own perspective)~ Imagining and planning my own life so I would not live that hard onwards...but the more I think the dizzy I get...I've no idea whether i can go through all the challenges by my own..

I need someone..but who is that someone???? Someone who can listen to me whenever I'm in need...someone who can motivate me every time i'm down..someone who can sooth me with words of wisdom..someone who is very understanding..someone who can show me the right path...someone who is more matured than me..someone who can cool me down..someone who can cheer me up...someone who can lend the shoulder if I cried...someone who can shed my tears..someone who can make me smile when i'm in sad...someone who can take a good care of me...someone who is too ideal in my heart...

Where is that someone??who can take over my parent's place...but I feel grateful I still have HIM (ALLAH)...who has never leave me alone...always and always there for me...He listen to me well...and I feel safe....but Allah..I can't help my self of feeling sad..coz i'm a human..normal human that u've created with such feelings...please record my pray and grant my wish..amin Ya Rabbalalamin...

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Last minute..............................dangggggggg!!!!!!

 I got pile of works to be completed in 3 days..finishing two chapters of my paper work + quite a THICK file of portfolio + In house Seminar + Power point slides + unplanned/ additional task on manual book for material development and what else????

Eat your heart out my dear..dussssssssssssssssshhhhhhh~~this is what you deserve to get after few weeks of heaven..sort of punishment I bet..

God what a hectic week I need to face..please have mercy on I need miracle to happen...

Me monologue:

Me 1: Still~ you have time for new entry..hey step on the ground please!!! have no're a dead meat fella...

Me 2: This is how I ease my tense..better write then never instead of better late then never..haha

Me 1: aaaaaaaarggggghhhh now everything gets haywire..i'm talking to myself and answer it my own.....symptom of stress???

Me 2: Maybe..

Me 1: aaaaaaarrggghhh it happens again.......Stop talking nonsence please..will you

Me 2: You wanna know how??

Me 1: Yeahh tell me..howwwwwwwwww?????

Me 2: Easy...shut your blog off...

.....................................................................................................................................The End

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

I share because I care...

I got this from a book which I still haven't finish reading..Each page will need you to read it twice or maybe more cause you really need to understand the whole idea of the intended meaning..
Basically, t is a very interesting book that I would suggest you to read and digest..every single lines convey wonderful meaning..I got this from a bookstore in front of my campus..It just cost me RM10 but it worth me more than hope this will benefit the readers and even me myself...

by Abdullah Yusuf Ali

In the name of Allah
Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

1. Glory to Allah most High, Full of Grace and mercy;
He created all including Man.
To man He gave a special place in His creation.
He honoured man to be His Agent, 
And to that end, endued him with understanding,
Purified his affections, and gave him spiritual insight;
So that man should understand Nature,
Understand himself,
And know Allah through His wondrous Signs,
And glorify Him in Truth, reverence and unity.

2. For the fulfillment of this great trust
Man was further given a Will,
So this act should reflect Allah's universal Will and Law,
And his mind, freely choosing,
Should experience the sublime joy
of being in harmony with the infinite,
And with the great drama of the world around him,
and with his own spiritual growth.

3. But created though he was in the best of moulds,
Men fell from Unity when his will as warped,
And he chose the crooked path of Discord.
And sorrow and pain, selfishness and degradation,
Ignorance and hatred, despair and unbelief
Poisoned his life, and he saw shapes of evil
In the physical, moral and spiritual world,
And in himself.

Sit down and ponder on life

I bet that people can't stop to think about their future...we keep planning what will we do??How are we going to set up life??what kind of person that we are going to be?? to whom we're going to spend our life with??how to generate money to cover up our life expense and so on..(it will be an endless discussion i guess)

Well sometimes we are too ambitious to achieve all..i'm not saying it is not good..even me myself cannot rid from this situation..but on the other side i keep asking myself what have I done in facing life?? taking long time to get the I concluded "Nothing".........hmmm

I didn't plan to say much in this entry..I just wanna share about a song which I bumped into last month..The lyric strucks me on the chord and I feel you would feel the same too..

So let us look what does Aizat trying to say in his song..."Years From Now"..enjoy~~~

aizat years from now (just click here u'll be directed to youtube)


What will I be years from now
What will I wear how will I look
I think too much I think too much

(Verse 1)
Sometimes its scary over thinking
What you have or haven't done
You think too much you think too much

(Verse 2)
Will the rain smell the same
Will our loosing trentrous game
And the star much shine
The color seems so blurry

Will l endup all alone
Without a shoulder to cry on

What will I be years from now
I have answered them but none have answered me
And when my time has come
I hope my last seconds in this life will have you
Will have you...

(Verse 3)
Will the rain smell the same
Will our loosing trentrous game
And neglect most people views
Seems so worthy

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Thank You sooooo Much dear friends

Last Saturday was happened to be my birthday..9th October 2010 
Yay!! Happy Birthday to me..the best thing is on that same day my classmates and I were having our annual dinner "TESL NIGHT 10" at Brisdale Hotel. 
Actually I shared my "B" day with Anis...Happy Birthday Anissss=) mmmuaaahhh

 Brisdale Hotel at chow kit road

Y did u shut ur eyes dear (-_-)

I don't expect to have such a surprise birthday party...

 Mak aiihhh kerasnyer kek nih..

 see there 9th October 2010.v(^_^)v

I stayed up late the night before the dinner...burning the night oil to finish up works (see up there it was self-made u know) together with my classmates at the compound area next to KHAR..we were there till 1.20 a.m and so sad there's nobody wishing me for my birthday....fine~maybe they forgot cause there's so many works to be done...=(

By 2.00 a.m we reached home..i just rushed into the bedroom to get my laptop on..and the first thing to be look at is my FB..well reading all the wishes posted by friends through Fb do carve a smile on my face..=)


And so the next day we departed to the Hotel at around 10.30 a.m...and blaaaa bla bla.
So it came the night that we were all waiting for...

 done with our work!!suddenly we saw a trolley..
hehe Aisyah get in..vrooooommmm3

In the middle of the function right after Punithan had perform his dance I saw two guys brought up the table to the stage and I thought it's going to be used by punit in his second performance..Suddenly, somebody turned the light off and they played a movie..I kinda shock that the movie was dedicated to me and Anis..That was so nice to see birthday wishes from Rowena, Sun, Minjae, Hawoon and Hyung Gyeo...warrrrgggghhhh my tears started to run..I was sooo touch and couldn't explain it by words..THANKS're the best..

stunning performance by punit

can't stop myself from smiling..definitely happy=)

 Grow as one..aja2

 Balloons were all over the table..only Sam with the pump while the rest need to use manual pump.

 These people contribute a lot to the event..thanks guys

Whatever happens family will be the best companion to me..Thank You B.Mie, kak Ida, akak, Nurul, Lila, Ckin, mader, nani and Ibu for the wishes and doa..I hope that God will record all doas forwarded to me..Time Kaceh..Saayannngggg Korang!!!!!
 Love creates a family =)

Ops not to forget my dearest housemates who have been planning and working out this surprise party thanks Zarah, Aisyah, Qis and Syirahhhhhhh (I know that you've done a lot to make this happen and really2 appreciate your effort in working on thee video..may God take your deed in sight)..i'm so lucky to have all of you in my life..wink3

Not included Herman and Lailee ;)
Birthday wish, birthday cake, birthday party and birthday Pr*****
So many things to be spent for birthday..well let see what had i received from my dearest friends.

This was given by zaharah..can't believe that she can
be so romantic at times.

Froggies on leg..thanks syirah

Aisyah are u trying to tell me that my froggy need to reduce weight.. heheee
I like the paper bag most..adorable colour maybe.

i like the color combination...cantek kan!!!

trying to fix two heads in one small goodies bag...

To whom it may concern...I'm so overwhelm by all the birthday wishes posted in my FB..all I can say is Thank you..deep from the bottom of my heart I pray to God that all of you will be blessed by HIM..InsyaAllah..Thank You again..

Friday, October 8, 2010

All I can say is Welcome to Malaysia 'Maher Zain'..SAVE THE SOUL

How would you feel when you just one step closer to it but sadly it's not fated to be is so sad and distressing isn't it??I feel sorry to myself coz it happened to me..wuaaaaaaaaaaaa (tears drop like heavy rain)

I've been waiting for this moment for so long hoping that he would come and perform in Malaysia...yes he is??but it's just not my luck coz I couldn't be able to be at his concert on this 14th and 15th of October 2010..all tickets were sold out and I am one of the fans in Malaysia that is sooooo unlucky to miss the chance to meet him..I bet all the way toMBSA will be having bad congested to receive Maher Zain's fan from all over the states..

Anyhow I wish that everything will run smoothly..Aminnnn Ya Rabbalalamin..

Here are some pictures taken from his site on FB...I'm so envy reading all the comments telling about their present to the concert..

 Maher Zain
I wish I could sit next to him (-_-)

 Receiving his platinum award
Congratulation!!!! all readers who are previously do not know who is Maher Zain, help yourself to download any of his songs from the internet and do listen to his songs..All the lyrics were beautifully written and i believe you'll be falling in love with it..and for those who are already the fan of Maher Zain..keep supporting him and let's buy his original CD..

I'm still collecting money to buy one..InsyaAllah

I really wish that there will be another concert in Malaysia to promote his next album so i can be there to support you.. INSYAALLAH.

 Yes I already suggested your album in my blog..hehe

Thursday, October 7, 2010

What a day was today...Yeppie v(^0^)v

Who says that Wednesday is holiday...I said so..haha coz i'm free on this day..and you know what did i do today??

 Previously, I'd posted bout my messed up interview right? It so happened that by 10.30 a.m I managed to finish my short interview heading myself home...well basically the first thing that i did was checking up my FB account. Just got few messages and approving requested friends (performing my daily routine ahaks )..

Actually my housemate and I had planned on visiting our classmate Ain...Last few days she involved in an accident that caused her bad injury..She broke her leg..I feel sorry for her is kind of serious and she had been forwarded to GH Teluk Intan..Well as a friend we feel oblige to pay a visit besides enjoying the beautiful scenery of TI (looking after interesting shops to enter and to invest our money in it)...ehem that is the main agenda actually..

Frankly speaking, I was so impressed by the peacefulness of the hospital..never seen such an empty hospital like that before..hehe...

So the visiting hour is set to be from 4.30 till 7.00 yet we were there about an hour early...walking around the not so-big hospital made us feel slightly throat felt dried so we don't talk much during the sightseeing at the hospital.(0_-)..Naaahhh we saw the right place specially not for a patients like us.."CANTEEN"..just stop by and look for something to eat..~chocolates, waffles, ice-milo, buns, feel like heaven on earth...

4.15 p.m...we couldn't wait more..there so much plan to be done on it's time for acting and we just rush in to block B and faced the guard.."Pak cik kami dr jauh nk melawat kawan..klu lewat sgt takut smpai rumah tengah malam" that was kind of persuading password...changgggg!!!!! password accepted...then we're in...Kacang bah (-_0)

 It was so sad to see Ain on bed...what we could do is to calm herself and told her stories bout our own in hospital..well it was like a story circle..the mission is just to cheer Ain up...and it seems to work..

Then we moved to the town looking for a place where we could keep our money in..GIANT...around 6.30pm we met Kak Nora and went to MC D having our dinner.

Then somebody said.."weihh it 7pm already..cerite Keluarga Bahagia" we rushed out coz we a saw a flat screen television outside.."Dik boley mintak tuka channel 8tv x??" and finally we were sticking ourselves at MC D till 8pm..we cannot miss this episode coz it's about to the end of the story..and so our eyes were glued on the screen.

Hoyeehhh!! we weres so happy we still can find TV to watch Hor Ma v(^_^)v

Luckily we still haven't finished our drink..we are still the customer so nobody can chase us away from our seats.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Messed up interview....

Started off my day with a date..
Yes I went out for a date today, but not the blind one..
I had to set up a meeting with the students out of the school hours since they are now having their holiday during the PMR examination (Good Luck for those who are sitting for your PMR today)..
Actually this is for my project paper that i need to submit in three weeks time and at the moment it just about 65% done..huhu..still way far more to go...
Thanks for my students Siew Loo, Mei Yee, Tira and Azian for scarifying your holiday for me..yeah teacher has no choice but to burden the four of you with such messed up interview questions.

Well, i'm so happy that they are very patience in understanding my questions which sometimes repeating and unclear to them.. i thought interview is simpler than distributing questionnaire, perhaps not...i pity them for struggling so much on it..O God..this is such a mental abuse to those girls.."bad teacher!!!"

The worst part is...i had promised them a present for helping me, unluckily i left the presents at shouldn't be happen laa..ayoo mak are getting older and seems that you are older than your forgetful...But don't worry dear girls..i keep my promise in hand...i'll bring them next Wednesday okay...

Anyway, I just wanna record my thanks to the four of you for being so kind and helpful..May Allah grant you with success onwards..

Till then,, see you on wednesday 1.10 - 1.50 plus your present as well..

Aiyoo this is even harder than final exam questions#^%$@
(^_-) Tira, Azian and Siew Loo

Go Mei Yee there are 12 more questions to answer...
These are your presents my dear students...sorry99x from me;(

It is time for a change...

I feel like changing my blog template...and this is how it looks now...

 green will always be by first it

Perhaps it might look simpler than before..actually i had no intention on posting any...but something bugs me to do so..than here i am writing nonsense..haha..(at least i made an effort to write something)

Basically why i like green?

(^_`) i feel happy when i see green
(@_@) it cheers me up
(^_^) Easily attracts me (simply i'll drag my eyes to anything looks green)
(-_-) i got few collections of green stuff and whenever i see them i feel like wanna have more 
(0_-) It brings me to the past (why??? hehe...secreto de amore wahahaha)
(0_0) Green is ME...(can't explain more)

Go green....
P/s : i've no idea why i put all the unrelated emoticons next to my points.It doesn't represent any moods..just feel like they are all cute and they should be there to make it looks more fancy.